Dinners Ready!!!

I don't know how many times I've yelled that to my boys... and up they come running... after spending what seems hours cooking up something great it is only to be devoured in less than 10 mins... and then off they run again back into their world.. and leave me back in mine to do it all over again... on my own and alone... feeling unappreciated. Oh to be a man in my next life... to be waited on hand and foot... and not have to say 'thank you'... or think of the other person ... just be totally and completely selfish... imagine that?

This is my world... did I carve it out and pour the mold for them to so easily slide into? It fits so perfectly for them doesn't it? How can I break out of it without losing it completely? I have so many questions... I wonder how many other women feel like I do. Seems there no time for 'me'... and if I dare complain well then, that's another subject for another post.

This is fun... being able to write into the cyber world and hoping someone will comment and give me some insight into my thoughts... or maybe tell me to shut up and deal with it... as I get more into blogging I will elaborate further on what makes my life tick... but for now I'm just serving up the appetizer...

Into my world...

This is my first attempt at blogging.... I was inspired by others out there who share similar stories of marriage woes ... I've entitled this 'Is that all there is?' as it is a question I raise time and time again being married now for 8 years... wondering why I'm not always happy and counting my blessings. I keep searching for something more and wondering when I will feel like everyone else around me who appears to be happy, knowing full well they can't be... so many of us pretend to be something we aren't.

I feel alone most of the time... my partner would never agree with my analogy, he's very happy... but then why wouldn't he be... a great wife, mother, servant, house keeper, honest & reliable woman he has... but what did I get?

I will sign off now.. as this is just the beginning of where my journey ends for today...